Mourning is a Muscle


It was strange how it started.
How the urge came about
but it definitely was an urge.
A twist in my instinct.

In the still shock of the 2020 London lockdown, Barry began writing letters to their father. He had died four years earlier. A simple mourning ritual grew and allowed Barry to move again.

Mourning is a Muscle is the culmination of those letters, a denim-drenched journey through grief, connection, queerness, and lineage - part performance, part installation. Focusing on the relationship of a father and queer child, and a story of a derelict farm, it fuses movement, music, design and ritual. Playfully delving into gender, how we carry the landscape of home, and the joy of moving as our true selves.

From Annie Lennox to Neil Diamond, Carlow fields to London lockdown, line dancing to lip-syncing - it moves across time and place, landing in tender and electric moments. A call to witness mourning in all its forms: spectacular, ordinary, and everything in between.

Current dates: Carlow Arts Festival, Sat 30 May - Mon 1 June

Creative Team:

Creator / Performer: Barry Fitzgerald
Set & Costume Designer: Rūta Irbīte
Sound Designer: Tadhg Kinsella
Lighting Designer: John Gunning
Movement: Barry Fitzgerald & Daniel Hay-Gordon
Dramaturg: Ben Buratta
Costume Maker: Harry Whitham
Production Manager: Iris Liange
Producer: Anderson de Souza

Project development: Philip Connaughton, Jane Deasy, Alice Quinn Banville.

Funded by the Arts Council / An Chomhairle Ealaíon. Developed with the support of Carlow Arts Festival, Carlow Arts Office, Dublin Fringe Festival, OUTBOX, Pan Pan, Shoreditch Town Hall and VISUAL Carlow.