Mourning is a Muscle


In the still shock of the 2020 London lockdown, Barry began writing letters to their father. He had died 4 years earlier. A simple mourning ritual grew and allowed Barry to move again.

Mourning is a Muscle (MIAM) is the culmination of those letters - a contemporary performance that explores connection, grief, queerness and ritual. Focusing on the relationship of a father and queer child, and a journey home to a derelict farm; MIAM delves into gender, lineage, how we carry the landscape of home, and the joy of moving as our true selves.

Annie Lennox to Neil Diamond, Carlow countryside to London lockdown; text, costume, visuals, sound and movement are combined in a visceral performance that asks us to look at mourning as something to be nurtured. How can we mourn better in the big and small ways?

Created & performed by Barry Fitzgerald
Designer: Rūta Irbīte
Movement: Philip Connaughton
Sound: Jane Deasy
Dramaturg: Ben Buratta
Costume maker: Harry Whitham
Produced by Alice Quinn Banville

Mourning is a Muscle has been developed with the support of Arts Council Ireland, Carlow Arts Festival, Carlow Arts Office, The Complex, Dublin Fringe, OUTBOX and VISUAL Carlow.

Dates: Work-in-progress at Carlow Arts Festival 2024
Full show coming in 2026.